Monday, November 12, 2007


Roja and Bombay, things that launched AR Rehman were released around time wen i was reaching a significant 13, I think Rehman's music was the only good thing around, then. almost all friends had the music but didn't have it at home, made it all the more coveted



Drums start the ball
dancers dancing-best of all

the king watches, and the guards
from the stage, they participate

Dancers dance on the singer's voice
singers sings along the rules, not made out of choice
they seem to dances to tunes, but the semblece is contrived
the onlooker watches the rhyme, the synchrony of dancer's movement with the music

to segment and separate the dance from the music
is to acknowledge each as whole

to separate the voice from the rhyme
and rhythm from body

...to observe in a special way...the constituents that form the whole, the form, the whole, to perform by just looking, to be not just a dancer among many of the troop but the king who sees troops pass by

to participate as the last performer

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Howz your day

it is chooti Diwali

think i could get some mombatti and light my small balcony of my single hostel room

Just changed the setting of my room yesterday, the study table lay side by side to the wall. now lying vertically across the room reaching out to the bed, adjusted to maximise light on the table and to make books lying all over the room and the bed within an arm's reach ... books and not scripts-thankfully

completed my script for 'SG' got late by 20 days, will get paid, (had hardly expected to get paid) have run out of money completely, after lending 3k to friend who settled in Delhi this month, she had to buy food, more imp. than my bills. some money to another one who had to choose between paying for transport (taxi) to interview and a week's food expense...my laptop battery is defunct after i didn't switch it off for 4 days working on the 'SG' script, (fees phone bill...my expenses more than I all have put together :))) will cost me 4k they say. this book saves me, there is another script for which payment should come too....'Rural Women in India' brother is driving down 250 miles to home for Diwali, asked me if i'll come, had 20 rs. in my purse could hv not reached his place in Gurgaon, didn't ask him for money...bloody Strong in my veins. the same evening friend came 4k without asking, bloody lucky too:)

book: reading some seminar papers Chomsky and other scholars

this morning got up, got out early, took a rickshaw to deposit the phone bill at a vodafone shop, there a three vodafone shops within'g a stone; throw in Kamalnagar malkaganj junction, Vodafone red boards everyhwere else too...bloody marketn

was walking down, pencil I use to hold my bun broke and it was loose, wearing jeans i slept in last night and the same uncrumpled shirt i walk miles around, morning walk walk shakti nagar red light, around Knags, maurice nagar, towards Patel Chowk towards hostel, this guy from McGraw Hill, ex-officemate, stopped his car, Hi!!! made his day to see, I obliged him by taking lift and asked how his kids are, unfortunately he is teaching them these days:))

a drop of a very strong anti bacterial fell on my little finger, burned it and saw how quickly my skin corroded and the corrosion spread and burninng the skin sreading to the other finger, ran from my bath and reached room, what to do, too late by the time I'll reach doc. finger will burn by then, applied, closest at hand, aloe vera gel i keep with me. itching sunsided for a while, skin stopped melting, the corrosion froze in the areaand stoppd spreading. I went on with the bath (went trough the corridor wrapped in clothes to reach the bathrooms, convenience of all girls hostel;) and couldn't keep from wetting ym hands, wiped fingers and the gel alongwith it, itching subsides even more, applied the gel again, and wipe, better still, skin better too

My thoery: skin soaked the drop of anti-bacterial, aloevera dissolved it, but the ab still kept burning the skin, wiping it removed it, applicationand wiping again removed it, 15 minutes later, its fine,I can use my pen write, looks its natural color

Being on the other side

We know about things – good things, bad things

Good things make us happy, we live with them
Bad things make us unhappy, no choice

One side of existence we suffer these things
There is - other side.

We choose/tag experience as ‘pain’... beggers become choosers on this other side, you don’t mind experiences in ignorance, there is no stagnancy, there is movement, no pleasure but yes, progress, wisdom, panya

There is way, long way through darkness to light.
Start traveling when everything is ok, will be too late when death comes!