Meet Reality

It is as if that is what I am witnessing-coming closer to reality, it is like sleeping wihout something cushy under you, on hard ground

It rained, and there was sunshine too. Sky patched with clouds.

Didn't go for a jog today
Had dinner
Had a long talk with nepali friend, nothing is helping me
spent an idle evening with her, idle evening in an endless long time-i could afford that!
Am dying

END of PHASE I

There is a one year prologue for Phase II
You know it is end of phase one when everything personal/professional which could be changed has changed, in terms of perspective. Am grown up, am a woman, life is here with its gamut of family, job, degree blah dancing, time to build the prospects, write, time to build my concrete house, write my set of words, perform my part of duty, do my share of travel, time to play my part before i retire, time to live. THIS is the time when I move on from the being the beliefless, pathless, heedless, convictionless person ...time is right.

I'll need all my cool. Prologue to Phase II is one year long, its going to be a fantastic year and its going to last me a long while. Lot of planned learning, lot of effort will go in laying the solid foundation of transition to Phase II.

For now in Phase two, I get rid of existential dilemma, time to live on concrete facts, time to prepare for the stability, time to accept, time for gearing for comfort and reside in some wisdom. before I lose it all again in Phase III or 3 if u like:)

What will Phase III be like...it will be closer to death, I'd be past my youth by then, or at least past the urgency of youth and will be moving faster then ever towards death, towards truth, bettering my practise, more skilled in practice for the path was carved out in phase I and the first steps taken there...and it is a long way to go, and I'd be found racing in my sturdy vehicle with calm reassurance