Underneath the starlight starlight
There’s magic that’s feeling so right…

I have troubles, concerns, decisions where I don’t know right from the wrong but have to Decide and to stick to it for stability’s sake if nothing else.

In midst of it I take out time and go for the Jog. To meditate.
Take out a night to lie down on the roof on a sheet watching the stars, vast… the moon overlooking from behind the neem tree … sky…stars and nothing in between …space

(got up at four in the morn, rolled the sheets and came downstairs, meditated and called up mom before going to the mess for breakfast … tell her I am coming and am sitting here sorting myself before I go see her) My sister got TB, going to see her. Fuck she needs me and would never say it, dammit I care but am weak, bloody I hate to live yet I see it so grand, grand sweeps of pain …ah! I love, yeah I love