Mandala Dream
“First incident when I was in class 5. Did not even know what it was then.
An year later, in class 6 I saw a dream with my mind conscious, reason from my waking world still working making me aware in my sleep, or you could say I was visualizing with my eyes closed resting in my bed at night…or something like that in sleep state.
The dream was of two round lumps with shifting boundaries, fluid masses with fluid round boundaries, mingling…vision like of some animals like infrared vision, using body heat, like it just stands out as red masses of heat and flesh against the dark, moving. I remember telling myself "P when you grow up and get the delusion, remember this is what it is, just this, nothing great!”
The psychology person doing research on typical childhood dreams of meditators said:
That’s a typical Mandala dream, that is why you are what you are. That dream was the determinant of your spiritual…the researcher on meditation who is impressed by Carl Jung explained to me. (dreams are just shadows I later explained to her, they can never be ‘determinants’. Wrong word)
This has been a recurring dream recently, saw it 3-4 days back:
“I am at the terrace of a very tall bare building, tall as a cliff, the terrace has no boundary. I sleep on a mattress on the edge of the terrace and when I stretch my neck and look down from the immense height, houses look like the size of ants and I hold on tight to the mattress afraid that I’d fall. The sea stretches on one side with the setting/rising sun reflecting on calm waters and the sprawling city (like Mumbai) along the coast on the other side. If you look right ahead you see the coast and if look on your left from the building it is the endless sea, as if you watching from a cliff. As I look up lying on the mattress I usually spot a pair of eagles flying.”
You are going to succeed she said. (Whatever that means))
She transformed the perspective I had for the first incident, she has studied Tantra…
“It was first experience with energy, your initiation at a young age, anyone else might have thought it was terrible, it was positive for you…" she said it matter of fact and we resumed editing the research proposal orally”
Had I been the teacher I would have rejected the badly written proposal, or may be not… provided I didn’t think like a stupid editor. She knew it as i went about commenting, she had not worked hard on the thing, ( she did a lot of copy paste), might have wasted lots of time in thinking/ worrying/talking about/around it, like most Indians do!
Where do we go now…mmm where do we go
An year later, in class 6 I saw a dream with my mind conscious, reason from my waking world still working making me aware in my sleep, or you could say I was visualizing with my eyes closed resting in my bed at night…or something like that in sleep state.
The dream was of two round lumps with shifting boundaries, fluid masses with fluid round boundaries, mingling…vision like of some animals like infrared vision, using body heat, like it just stands out as red masses of heat and flesh against the dark, moving. I remember telling myself "P when you grow up and get the delusion, remember this is what it is, just this, nothing great!”
The psychology person doing research on typical childhood dreams of meditators said:
That’s a typical Mandala dream, that is why you are what you are. That dream was the determinant of your spiritual…the researcher on meditation who is impressed by Carl Jung explained to me. (dreams are just shadows I later explained to her, they can never be ‘determinants’. Wrong word)
This has been a recurring dream recently, saw it 3-4 days back:
“I am at the terrace of a very tall bare building, tall as a cliff, the terrace has no boundary. I sleep on a mattress on the edge of the terrace and when I stretch my neck and look down from the immense height, houses look like the size of ants and I hold on tight to the mattress afraid that I’d fall. The sea stretches on one side with the setting/rising sun reflecting on calm waters and the sprawling city (like Mumbai) along the coast on the other side. If you look right ahead you see the coast and if look on your left from the building it is the endless sea, as if you watching from a cliff. As I look up lying on the mattress I usually spot a pair of eagles flying.”
You are going to succeed she said. (Whatever that means))
She transformed the perspective I had for the first incident, she has studied Tantra…
“It was first experience with energy, your initiation at a young age, anyone else might have thought it was terrible, it was positive for you…" she said it matter of fact and we resumed editing the research proposal orally”
Had I been the teacher I would have rejected the badly written proposal, or may be not… provided I didn’t think like a stupid editor. She knew it as i went about commenting, she had not worked hard on the thing, ( she did a lot of copy paste), might have wasted lots of time in thinking/ worrying/talking about/around it, like most Indians do!
Where do we go now…mmm where do we go
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